I began CCS with the dreaded thought that I would then have to add another deadline on my ever growing pile of course work, but as the lectures and seminars into actually what we would be blogging about I found it much more enticing and enjoyable. I do thoroughly enjoy research particularly historical and or combined fashion research, so as the project developed I thought I would actually be in a good position.
However this was not the case. although I knew I had all of the relevant information in my head I found it exceedingly difficult to compress into the caped amount of words we could use. that alongside the fact that I found it really difficult to connect with my blog, I have enjoyed writing essays in the past but because blogs are so different I have built up a subconscious fear of using them. The longer the project went on for the greater this fear got until I had no time left at all so I then had to rush would I feel could of been a rather good piece of work into something I am now not sure is. couple this with my bizarre inability to Harvard reference things it seems like the entire situation was against me.
Although with the immense amount of negativity I had, there was light at the end. after I finally got over this irrational fear and actually did the work I started to enjoy it, no more than the last post on ‘Youth Subcultures’ because enabled me to involve a part of family history almost by me using a conversation I have had many times with my granddad and put him in my work (something I never thought I’d ever do). I feel that in a little way my informal writing has developed as before when I wrote essays etc I was always using a rather extensive and vibrant vernacular where as this time round I feel there was a slightly softer approach to my wording.
All in all I feel that although the paper outcome of this project not up to the potential that I know I can reach but it has seriously allowed me to see my need for change in mattes and also that tasks that seem almost impossible for the simplest reasons can still be overcome with persistence. and that is what I will take from the project the most.